cant turn back now

We are on a long journey back to the good ol' area of northern Alberta. I am used to being settled in a 'home' by this point of the year, finished up at Moose Lake for another year and back to life somewhere else. But for some reason I find myself traveling backwards. This trip from Pentiction would not feel so long if Liam would just enjoy sitting strapped into his car seat, but since he needs to get out of his seat often to stretch his legs and find stuff to chew on, we have a break the trip up. So here we are in a hotel in Valemount. It is very beautiful here and the waterslide and pool have cheered me up!
"walk on, walk on, walk on cause you can`t turn back now," is the song (by The Weepies) that played in the truck twice on the way here. It really struck me as a bit of truth for our life today. We are travelling back to a small town, all of our stuff in a horse trailor, (yes, we bought a horse trailor) and there is no turning back now. Clayton has a job offer and is preaching at a small evangelical church in Glendon Sunday. I am so nervous about what we are about to do, and equally excited. It`s strange because I am feeling polar-opposite emotions about this whole new adventure and it makes me dizzy.
But just like the song advised me, we will walk on and not turn back. If things don`t work out in Glendon and we have to turn to plan `B` (whatever plan B is LOL), than I am OK with that! But if Clayton gets this job and I become a pastors wife, than I am also happy and ready to become a small town mamma. I will learn to make perogies, crazy carpet down the hill to the beach at MLGC in the winter, maybe get a couple chickens, cross-country ski down the horse trail and take in the breath-taking sun-sets on the flat land all around me. But either way I am all in.

tis the season for change

 Fall, it is a friendly and beautiful reminder that change is in the air, not just in the leaves but also in my life. I have never been a big lover of fall until I moved to BC, coming from Alberta fall is a very short season somewhere between summer and snow. The tree's only seem to get a short chance to reveal their beauty before the snow and frost arrive to turn everything from colours of orange and gold to a depressing brown that lasts until about the end of April. But fall in BC is a gorgeous event that lasts a good month or more. I have never really appreciated fall until these past three years.
My recommendations for fall in BC is walking down 6th ave in Vancouver in Kitsilano between Yew and Trafilager. Keremos near Pentiction and see the pumpkin patch and walk through a apple orchard. Drive around the Skaha in Pentiction or take a trip to Naramata and dip your toes in the cold Okanagen water. These have been my favorite places so far.
The trees are not the only things changing though right now, my life is changing as slow as the trees in BC.  
It's funny because I want my life to hurry up and get where it's going, because living homeless at my mom's with all of my belonging's in a trailer in storage is starting to get to me.

                

Today though I think I am learning that I need to just sit back and enjoy the slow change in my life. Enjoy the change along the way to where we are going. Maybe God is implementing slow change in my life so that I am able to take enough time to truly think and contemplate about where this change is actually taking me.  I have a feeling that once I get there I am going to be thankful for this time I have had to wrap my mind around the destination God is bringing my family to. So today, I choose to be thankful for slow change.

Psalm 112

   Hallelujah! Blessed man, blessed woman, who fear God, 

   Who cherish and relish his commandments, 

   Their children robust on the earth, 

   And the homes of the upright—how blessed! 

   Their houses brim with wealth 

   And a generosity that never runs dry. 

   Sunrise breaks through the darkness for good people— 

   God's grace and mercy and justice! 

   The good person is generous and lends lavishly; 

   No shuffling or stumbling around for this one, 

   But a sterling and solid and lasting reputation. 

   Unfazed by rumor and gossip, 

   Heart ready, trusting in God, 

   Spirit firm, unperturbed, 

   Ever blessed, relaxed among enemies, 

   They lavish gifts on the poor— 

   A generosity that goes on, and on, and on. 

   An honored life! A beautiful life! 

   Someone wicked takes one look and rages, 

   Blusters away but ends up speechless. 

   There's nothing to the dreams of the wicked. Nothing.

-The Message