Parenthood. Nothing can prepare you for the life of being a parent. People always tell you that you need to be ready because it changes your whole life and even though we hear the words they tell us, it cannot be fully understood until you experience it.
I love my boys so much. They are cute, funny and always learning. It is amazing to watch a human grow and experience the world around them. But it is also very frustrating, stretching and sacrificing as well. I have grown to think that some people were cut out to be parents and some people, like me, have to work harder at it. I think it all comes down to patiences and because I am a 'right now' type of person, I have to really work on not losing my cool ALOT. I also have a bit of a control issue. I like things to go a certain organized way and kids are the complete opposite. Liam's favorite gaming is throwing things. He dumps out his toys, throws them down the hall, than moves on to dumping out clothes from drawers, food, utensils, and ultimately anything that looks 'dumpable' is to him. And with every dumping of things is a huge grin on his face and laughter. This messy play is needless to say hard on my nerves. Like why cant the bath water stay in the tub? Why does my bathroom ALWAYS turn into a swimming pool? Right, because Liam is 2.
Discipline is necessary. Rules need to be set up so kids have boundaries and dont run wild like animals. But here is the thing I am learning. A child needs to be set in their place when they are not respecting you and their enviroment. But as parents we also need to chill out and let our kids be kids. A kids world is not perfect and organized. It is a learning world and learning can be messy. As adults we do not always learn things quick, easy and structured; at least I never have. So today I am going to pray hard for God to give me the patients I need to let my floor get sticky, to let my bookshelf get unorganized and to let my kids get dirty... well not Carson cause it is kinda my job to keep him clean. Not very long ago I read a post on pinterest that said something like, Good parents have sticky floors, piles of laundry and dirty dishes. And I said to my mother-in-law that I must be a bad parent cause I cant do that! But the point is not to let your house get out of control, but to lay down your control-freak nature and enjoy your kids. To worry more about if you have spent time playing and getting messy with your 2 year old and cuddling your newborn instead of doing the dishes.
So here is to today: A messy, unorganized day. A day of fun, cuddles and play.
