Nothing Beats Family

I was driving to Bonnyville to do some shopping the other day. I love when I go by myself and I can blast my music and have some 'me' time.  I don't know what song I was listening to but I found myself tearing up and feeling emotional about life. All of a sudden a flood of thoughts raced through my head and I started to think about all the things I would do if I didn't have a toddler and expecting another baby.  I guess I was having a loss of independence breakdown.
I thought to myself, if I still lived in Vancouver with no kids, what would I be doing? Shopping, working at a salon and pushing myself to become a better stylist, going for coffee at 49th Parallel and enjoying walks down to the beach in peace. I would hit up a few of my favorite restaurants and of course go to Brown Rice Sushi every other day.
So in down on life moment, I decided to go to the only cute little cafe around in Bonnyville and sit by myself with Chai Latte.  As I sat at the table I thought, "now what?".  I am not used to being by myself anymore. I went on facebook on my iPhone for a couple minuets and spent maybe 2 minuets just thinking before I got pretty bored and started to think, "Why is it so quiet in here? oh, cause Liam is not being noisy. Why am I sitting here, this is weird, oh, because I am not chasing Liam. I wonder if Liam is up from hi nap?"
After thinking about my little family back home in Glendon, I realized there was no where else I would rather be. I would much rather be sitting at home listening to Liam say, "mama, moo, ruf-ruf, bear" and have him constantly be pulling on my finger to do something or asking me "whats this?" than be sitting here alone in a cafe. I would rather be sitting around at night with my amazing husband choosing baby names for our next child than be out (well I would like to be out to, that's not 100% true lol) but I would want to be with Clayton.
I got up right away and got in my car. As I drove home I choose the "scenic" route past Northshore Heights and felt so happy to be able to drive and look at Moose Lake, one of my favorite places.  Than I realized there is no where else I would rather be. I love living near Moose Lake and I LOVE my husband and little Liam so so much. Having a family does take some adjusting sometimes because you need to learn how to be selfless and not selfish alot. But I wouldn't trade it for anything or for time by myself in a cafe.